Dakwah

Terjumpa penulisan Ust Alizi Alias, seorang da'ie dan jugak seorang yang pakar dalam psikologi.

I paste it here so that, when I feel really small, inferior or even really hurt with people in this jalan dakwah, I will not make a decision to leave this great road. This will be my very reminder that there are many ways to contribute in this road.

Mardhatillah.

*******

Kdg2 golongan bukan pendakwah suka mengharap supaya golongan pendakwah ini perfect. Kadang2 siap pressure lagi utk pendakwah kena jadi perfect. Tapi definisi perfect mereka lain.

Kena pandai menghibur dlm ceramah lah, kena pandai menulis dgn kreatif lah, kena pandai bahasa Arab, kena pandai mengaji, kena lembah-lembut, kena pandai bergaul dgn masyarakat, kena pakai pakaian tertentu, tak boleh tegur orang direct2, tak boleh tegur bab sensitif. Sehingga ramai org awam memilih utk tidak join dakwah sbb banyak sgt syarat yg sebenarnya tidak syarat pun.

Di kalangan pendakwah pula, mereka menyedari yg mereka tidak perfect dlm semua perkara. Tapi definisi mereka berbeza.

Ada yg pandai ceramah/menulis, ada yg pandai dakwah non-Muslim, ada yg pandai kerja2 kebajikan, ada yg pandai isu2 masyarakat madani, ada yg pandai isu2 wanita/kekeluargaan, ada yg pandai bawak halaqah/usrah, ada yg pandai promosi program dakwah, ada yg pandai media, ada yg pandai isu2 ummah antarabangsa, ada yg mahir bergaul dgn belia/remaja, ada yg pandai dlm mendidik anak2 murid, pandai dlm akademik dan pembangunan siswa, malah ada yg pandai memasak utk program2 dakwah.

Tapi semua itu dirancang, dilaksanakan, dan dinilai bersama2 dgn cara syura dlm halaqah/usrah, atau mesyuarat2 i.e amal secara berjama'ah. Diharapkan pahala yg diperolehi oleh setiap pendakwah yg berbeza kelebihan ini ini dapat dikongsi bersama semua pendakwah yg tidak sempurna ini.

Itulah hasil amal jama'i atau collective work, saling sempurna menyempurna antara satu sama lain.
Tiada yg merasa rendah diri utk menjadi pendakwah.

*******

Winter Break

And now,
winter break is here!

after a week of sleepless nights~

really need to plan this break wisely.

1) complete all the tutorial sheets (a must do if i don't wanna regret during my final exam)

2) learning coding. C language. Need to use it for next term robotic project.

3) apply for intership! still need to repair the cv.

4) somehow, every monday to thursday, i watched master chef the professional tv programme. really inspired with their cooking. so, the next in the list is, i wanna learn how to become a good chef! (as long as time allows)

5) start completing my log book and writing the group project final report. before everything messes around next term.

well, it's a 4 weeks break anyway. hopefully i can meet all my winter break aims! insyaAllah. (someone keeps reminding me to always say insyaAllah. ^__^)

:)

Random : Bila diri disayangi

London
11/11/13

Rules for a Happy Marriage

Being tagged by Amin Ruk in instagram.

I write it here so that I can refer to this rules easily some where in my life later on and practise it insyaallah.

:)

***

1. Never both be angry at the same time.
2. Never yell at each other unless the house is on fire.
3. If one of you has to win an argument, let it be your mate.
4. If you have to criticize, do it lovingly.
5. Never bring up mistakes of the past.
6. Neglect the whole world rather than each other.
7. Never go to sleep with an argument unsettled.
8. At least once everyday try to say one kind or complimentary thing to your life's partner.
9. When you have done something wrong, be ready to admit it and ask for forgiveness.
10. It takes two to make a quarrel, and the one in the wrong is the one who does the most talking.

***

Random - Impian Kasih

Ahad
27 September 2013
10.30 malam

Sambil buat Literature Research Project,
dengar lagu ni berulang-ulang kali.

So soothing.
:')




p/s : hurricane is coming

UK 3 - Euston Train Station

Sabtu
26 Oktober 2013

Dr Ipin datang ke London.
Lepas dia tamat dengan kerja dia, dia nak jumpaa satt sebelum ke Manchester.
Makan angin rasanya kat sana.

Dari London, kalau nak ke Manchester Picadilly,
the only train station is Euston Railway Station.

Sampai sana awal 15 minit.
Dengar announcement

"This is a London Midland service to Birmingham New St"

Then, segala memori pergi ke Birm,
dan semua yang berkaitan dengan Birm datang.

Rindunyaaaa.

***

Jumpa ja Dr Ipin,
dia cakap,
"Lef Kolonel sampaikan ucapan. Dia cakap..."
"Kirim salam kat bakal menantu."

*Blushing sangat.*

"Waalaikumussalam"

:')

Lafaz Yang Tersimpan

Jumaat
25 Oktober 2013

Hari ni banyak orang share berita kat FB
pasal seorang suami yang dapat panggilan telefon sejam sebelum isterinya meninggal.
Isteri mahukan love assurance daripada suami.
Tapi oleh kerana si suami sedang memandu,
dia bercakap dia tak boleh bercakap kerana memandu.

Lafaz Yang Tersimpan



Teringat laguu ni terus bila baca berita tu


Mengapakah sukar menyusun bicara
Meluahkan rasa menuturkan sayang
Kasih yang terlimpah hanya sekadar tingkah
Cumalah ungkapan bisu kalimah rahsia

Apakah yang hilang andai dilisankan
Bait penghargaan penuh kejujuran
Tak mungkin terlihat cinta yang merona
Jika hanya renungan mata yang bersuara,
Bukan tutur kata

Tiada lagi ertinya pengucapan
Andai akhir nafas di hujung helaan
Sebelum mata rapat terpejam
Usah biar kehilangan
Menggantikan lafaz yang tersimpan


***
Pengajaran pada diri.
Always let people know that you love him/her.

;'/

UK 2 - Enjoy, a question mark

Thursday.
October 24, 2013


Sneezing.
Again and again.
T.T

Why laaa so easy to get sick here?

And to think that
I still have 2 more years
to live in a place like this
where i dislike.
T.T

imperial especially.
and now,
start to dislike uk as a whole
without knowing why.

nak mainnnn.
tapi xdak orang nak main skali.

how to make this kind of life more enjoyable?
hmmmm..

IC 4 - Barclays

Selasa
22 Oktober 2013

Semalamnya tidur awal.
Tapi awat ntah bangun pagi terbabas gak.
=.=
Over-thinking kot.
Sebab kalau over-thinking malam tu, mesti pagi esoknya tu terbabas.
T.T

Keluar rumah 8.30 pagi.
Kelas pukul 9.00 pagi.
Keluar masa tu sebab dah decide dah masa kat rumah nak jalan kaki pergi uni.
So, anggarannya akan sampai laaaa pukul 8.55 pagi paling lambat.

Elok-elok jaaa keluar rumahhhh..
Aaaaaa..
Hujan rintik-rintik.

>.<

Tukaq plan.

Pi laaa bus stop.
Tengok screen for scheduled bus.
Cari bas route 414 kat skrin tu.
Tak masuk top 10 pun.
Tengok jam, dah dekat 8.40 pagi.

"Ahh. Lari ah pergi uni kalau gini. Basah pun basah laa"
*Ni akibat tak dak baju water-proof"

Lepas kawasan rumah sket,
tengok kiri,
eh? ada basikal barclays?
basikal ni basikal boleh sewa.

Pastu teringat Aqif ada bagi kunci basikal barclays dia sebab dia beli basikal baru.
So, terus redah naik basikal.

Sampai uni,
cari tempat park,
masuk bangunan,
8.52 pagi.
Baju basah lecun.
Beg yang galas, penuh kotor2.

LOL.

Janji sampai kelas awal.
^^"

UK 1 - Belong

Isnin.
Kelas mula awal, 9 pagi.
Habis kelas still mengantuk.

Pergi komp lab,
cari komputer,
scroll fb sampai boleh hilang ngantok.

jumpa sorang akh ni upload gambar program banyak2.
IKRAM UKE's Leadership Training & Induction Program.
tengok muka budak batch sendiri sorang-sorang.
wuuu, laju budak2 ni.
sebab kalau nak compare, i was touched by tarbiyyah like 2 years earlier than them.

***

semalam, masa open house,
ada orang tanya.

"weh, bukan hang patutnya ada program kat birm ka?"

ehh?
perhaps,
i just not belong here.

IC 3 - Journal

Sekarang dah start projek LRP
stands for Literature Research Project

Baru tahuuuuuu
penatnyaaaa membaca jurnal

>__<

Macam manaaaaa laaaaa si dia tu mampuu bacaa jurnal banyak2 untuk buat dissertation.
>__<

Baruuu baca sket dah @.@

And jauhhhh lagi perjalanannn.

Fuh fuh fuhhhh.

But the best thing about Imperial is,
boleh access banyakkk sangat jurnal dengan free.

Just log in via institution,
Imperial College London,
letak id,
letak password,
there you go!

ScienceDirect and Engineering Village are all yourss!
^__^

Bismillah..

IC 2

18 Oktober 2013

Keluar rumah pukul 12.40 tengah hari.
Sebab dah terlewat siket untuk solat jumaat,
so, aku pun laju kan pace perjalanan.

12.55 tengahari.
Masa tu betul-betul just lepas sarpentine gallery,
tetibaa..

"praapp" (tak laaa bunyi pun)
terus jalan capet.
terus sakit bahagian belakang lutut.

tak hilang2 sampai ke malam.
T.T

tanya laaa segala potential doktor.
semua suggest pergi jumpa doktor.

tapi,
aku tak daftar NHS pun lagi sampai sekarang.
LOL.

so tanya laaa diorang,
will knee support help?
dorang cakap
a'ah. akan sangat membantu.

so sekarang,
pakai laaa knee support yang baru order dari amazon untuk beberapa hari.
pakai2 je, rasa laaa yang lutut yg is held more firmly.

tapi,
mungkin trick otak je yang cakap rasa makin firm?

IC 01

Semalam kelas Introduction to Nuclear.
The first time sepanjang term ni
dapat fokus sangat.
Faham sebutir2 apa yang lecturer cakap.
Feel sooooo blessed.
=')

Maybe sebab benda tu dah ada basic siket.
Belajar pasal benda yang dah belajar siket2 masa SPM.
But still, pasal cross-sectional area during fission,
which is something new,
senang gak nak faham.
Even penuh dengan partial differentiation tuu.

So maybe,
kena baca everything,
and cuba faham,
sebelum masuk kelas?

Lama

Ianya bermula tadi.

Masa di dalam bas semasa dalam perjalanan balik dari Imperial ke rumah.

Bas 414 ke Maida Hill, The Chippenham.

Bas tak ramai orang.

Seat yang di hadapan sekali dekat tingkat dua tak dak orang.

"Nice. Boleh duduk depan tengok suasana malam kat London."

Teringat.

Tangkap gambar panorama sebelum sampai Harrods.

Lawaaa.

Upload kat whatsapp group.

Lepas tu,

"Eh, macam dah lamaa sungguh tak hapdet blog"

"Teringin nak update selalu balik aaa."

"Nak tulis, apa yang dah dilalui sepanjang kat imperial ni sementara masih ada masa"

"Nanti boleh baca2 balikkk bila dah habis blajaq"

Hmmpphh.. imaginasiii. memang lajuu jaaaa.

But well, let's give it a try.

7 Things Your Muslim Wife Won’t Tell You

*******

Disclaimer

This writing is not mine. I copy and paste it here so that I can find these advice easier later.

Taken from:

http://www.purematrimony.com/

islamiclearningmaterials.com

*******

Most men have a hard time understanding women. Even a woman they’ve been married to for years.

One minute she’s perfectly fine. The next, she’s crying like a baby.She complains about something but when we offer advice on how to fix it, she still isn’t satisfied.After several years of marriage (and counselling) I’ve learned to not worry so much about what my wife says. Instead, I should worry about what she doesn’t say.

With this information in mind, I’ve put together a quick list of things Muslim men should be aware of when it comes to their wife’s mind.

1. Above All, She Wants Your Love

This harkens back to a post I wrote a couple of months ago called “Love or Respect: Which Do You Prefer?”

In this article I explained that men desire respect from their wives, and women desire love from their husbands.

When a wife shows her husband less respect, he in turn shows her less love.And when a husband shows his wife less love, she in turn shows him less respect.And the vicious cycle repeats itself.

Stop this prophecy before it becomes self-fulfilling. Show love to your wife.That’s what she wants. Love her despite her flaws and quirks.And Inshallah, she’ll respect you despite your flaws and quirks.

2. She’s Bored

It’s the same thing every day.Week in and week out.Not only is she bored but she’s also tired.She has to care for the kids and run the household and then pamper you.

Just thinking about doing that every day makes me want to crawl under my covers and hide. I can imagine how the average Muslim housewife must feel.

And let’s not forget about working woman. Many Muslim women have to work a full time job as well as hold a house down.

So brothers, I implore you, make your wife feel special. Give her a break.Take her out sometimes. Surprise her with a surprise meal. Bring her favorite desert home.Just do something every now and then to break the monotany.

3. She Wants to Be Complimented

Appreciation.Everybody wants it.No one wants to feel as if the hard work they do goes unnoticed or even worse, it taken for granted.

Your wife does not have to clean your dirty clothes. And she does not have to cook your meals.But she does.

And she does that on top of all the other things in her life:

Working or going to school.

Caring for the kids.

Striving to be a better Muslimah.

Show your Muslim wife that you appreciate and are thankful for the things she does to maintain you and your family.

A simple “thank you” is a good start.

4. She’s Insanely Jealous

There’s a reason most women don’t care for polygamy.Be very careful how you talk about other women around your wife.

Don’t compare her to some female movie star.

Don’t compare her to your mother.

Never, ever compare her to your ex-wife (or other wife!)

She’s wants to know and believe that she is the center of your universe. So make her feel that way.

Even the Prophet’s (pbuh) wives got jealous. Aisha (RA) even got jealous of Khadijah (RA) who was dead.

Expect, and respect, the same type of jealousy from your wife.

5. She Wants You to Help Her Become A Better Muslimah

If you haven’t seen it yet, I encourage you to watch this video I did a couple of weeks ago for Muslim men. In this video I stress the importance of men taking the role of leader within their families.And that’s the problem with a lot of Muslim men these days.

Not only are they not being good leaders, they’re being led by their wives (or mothers, or other women in their lives).Your wife desires and wants you to be her leader. And what better way to lead her than to be show her how to be a better Muslimah?

But you can’t show her how to become better if you’re not that great either. Therefore, you have to upgrade your Iman. You have to improve yourself and then pass it on to her in a gentle, respectful way.

6. She Doesn’t Like to Nag, But Sometimes You Make It Hard

It’s a common myth that women like to nag their husbands. That’s not entirely true.Yes, there are some people (men and women) whom you can never please. No matter what you do, they’ll always find fault in something. Let’s be reminded of the following hadith:

Narrated Ibn ‘Abbas: The Prophet said: “I was shown the Hell-fire and that the majority of its dwellers were women who were ungrateful.” It was asked, “Do they disbelieve in Allah?” (or are they ungrateful to Allah?) He replied, “They are ungrateful to their husbands and are ungrateful for the favors and the good (charitable deeds) done to them. If you have always been good (benevolent) to one of them and then she sees something in you (not of her liking), she will say, ‘I have never received any good from you.” Sahih Bukhari

So, yes sisters should be careful about denegrating the things your husband does for you.But very often, you Brother, make it hard for her to hold your tongue.

Perhaps you’re always finding fault with her and she looks for things in your character to get even.

Perhaps you’re not working (or not working hard enough) and she has to work to take up some slack.Perhaps you’re just not that great of a guy.

Once again, upgrade yourself and give her less reasons to complain and nag.

7. More Than Anything, She Wants a Stable, Happy Relationship With You

Women don’t get married just because they think it’s gonna be fun.

They get married because they want a happy family life and they believe you’re gonna give it to them.

Outside of her religious duties, that’s the most important thing in a Muslim woman’s life. Raising a happy, stable, Muslim family.

The funny thing is, it’s very easy for you to give that to her.

Stop acting like a jerk. Be a good husband to her. Be kind. Show her you love her.

Don’t threaten her with divorce or taking a second wife. Yes, you have the right to do both. But using them as threats is inappropriate and detrimental to your marriage.

Trust in Allah, watch out for the tricks of Shaytan, and be patient with her. There’s nothing Shaytan would love more than to destroy your marriage.

See? That isn’t all that hard, now is it?

***

Dah lain

~Zaman dulu-dulu~

"Haih! Bila laaa kerja sekolah nak siap ni? Aku nak mainn"

"Haih! Bilaa laa projek nak siap ni? Aku nak rehat. Penat!"

~Zaman sekarang~

"Haih! Bila laaa courseworks ni nak siappp? Aku nak start buat tutorial sheets!"

***

Zaman dah berubah.

Fikiran jadi makin nerd.

Tak sempat dah nak fikir rehat2.

***

p/s : Dah tak reti nak spend masa whole day untuk berehat. Mesti akan rasa bersalah. So, nak tak nak, kena ambik gak tutorial sheets dan buat.

They say

They say

New York never sleeps.

They haven't seen 

Imperial yet.

Duduk library pukul 3-4 pagi pun, ramai orang lagi.

=.="

Edge

At the edge of quitting.

Siket je lagii.

Bertahan!

:/

Distracted

kenapalahhh
bila perasaan distracted ja,
kerja yg laju terus hilang momentum.
mood lari entah kemana.
malas.
malas.
malas.

silap haribulan,
courseworks kali ni tak sempat siap.
sama macam hari isnin hari tu.
T__T

macam manalah nak jadi kuat sket.
haihh.
going to sleep.
hopefully tomorrow will be better.
tapi esok deadlines?
tak apa. pandai2lah esok.

:)

Imperial at night

Antara benda paling best,

yang selalu sangat buat kebelakangan ni,

ialah,

stay back sampai pukul 10.30 malam kat uni,

lepas tu, bila pak guard halau, 

baru balik.

Sebab,

bila badan dah penat sangat buat kerja,

the moment step out keluar dari bangunan kaca imperial ni,

dapat lihat,

dan dapat rasa,

satu suasanaa,

yang sangat romantik.

Hanya dapat dilihat pada waktu malam bila keluar imperial.

Lampu jalan yang unik,

tak terang sangat, dan tak gelap sangat,

dari uni, sampai laa ke tube station,

lawaa sangat.

Plus landscape sekeliling yang best.

Tambah-tambah malam ni,

keluar dari imperial,

dengan suasana macam tu,

turun salji renyai2 (baca : flurries).

^___^

bahagia.

tak tergambar dengan kata-kata.

***

ps : next week, 5 deadlines. bismillah.

DMT : First phase

I think I'll proceed with this design.

Ni nama dia, Vegetable Cutter!

Tutor bagi feedback,

"Your design looks dangerous!"

Dah malas nak kesah.

Proceed je lah.

External Design

External design

Interior view

***

ps : entah bila laa nak pandai melukis aku ni. 

pps: nak try lah buat blog ni jadi tempat revision. tengok tahan berapa lama

Always

Always

and always 

and always

Bila kerja nak siap ja,

mesti produktiviti,

speed buat kerja,

semua jatuh mendadak.

Padahal tinggal siket je lagi.

Tapi hilang semua momentum.

Nak tulis 500 patah perkataan pun,

takes like ages.

T.T

***

ps : nampaknya, tidur pkl 5pg lagi laa hari ni.

0433 am

posted at 4.33 am.

lab report banyak lagi.

tapi esok sekolah.

start pukul 10 pg pulak tu.

T.T

***

ps : jangan laa mengantuk masa lab esok. dah laa waktu terbaik punya untuk tidur. 2-5 pm.

Which one

I'll try to do it.

***

Exam timetable

Exam timetable is out!

Terus sesak nafas.

Tue 21/05 - Thermofluids I (Fluid Mechanics and Thermodynamics)

Wed 22/05 - Thermofluids II (Heat Transfer)

Thu 23/05 - Mathematics

Fri 24/05 - Management and Business for Engineers

Tue 28/05 - Solid Mechanics I (Materials and Stress Analysis)

Wed 29/05 - Solid Mechanics II (Dynamics)

Thu 30/05 - Mechatronics

31/05 - 07/06 - Coursework.

Done.

***

Tudia. Ni nak bunuh orang ka apa. Tak dak gap langsung. 

Sekali start, harung terus semua 9 subjek.

Imperial : Coursework

Masa semua benda tengah menggunung,

Compendium charts,

IBIS charts,

Calculations on gear selection and stuffs,

Winch report,

Solid Modelling,

Tutorial sheets yang entah dah ketinggalan kat belakang berapa kurun dah

etc,

datang pulak new lab report kena buat.

=.=

Bila la nak habis semua ni.

Nak grad cepat-cepat.

Mesti masa tu, bila tengok balik kat belakang masa 2nd year, rasa macam sat ja masa tu berlalu.

Well, at least this thing kurangkan sket semua beban-beban tu.

nak dapat A pun kena go through 3 markers dulu. =.=

***

ps: yeah, now i believe deactivating fb increases my productivity a lot.

Solid Modelling : 1st Trial

Design and Manufacturing Individual Project.

Nak tahu guna benda2 alah surface modelling ni takes like ages.

Ni baru main-main.

Bukan design yang betul-betul lagi.

Kalau yang betul-betul,

agaknya,

berminggu-minggu baru siapp.

T__T

Yang kaler kelabu tu kononnya getah untuk bagi grip utk handling.

Ni kalau benda getah tu tercabut. Macam ni design asal.

Jangan tanya benda ni benda apa.
Memang tak tau.
Haha.

Ok rehat. Masa untuk buat tutorial sheets.

***

ps : KMB stands for Kerja Masih Banyak. Memang sampai bebila takkan grad dari KMB.

Sony

Pertengahan Januari sampai pertengahan Februari,

suhu selalu bawah 5C.

Badan tak menggigil sebab ada cukup insulation,

tapi tiap kali sampai uni dari rumah, 

atau sampai rumah dari uni,

telinga mesti merah.

=.=

Orang suggest pakai ear muff.

Setuju.

Tapi bosan laa nanti rasa kosong.

So, beli laa benda ni.

Ear muff moden.

Pergi uni pakai, balik uni pun pakai.

Hilang masalah telinga sakit, telinga merah.

***

Tadi,

macam biasa,

kalau tak sempat sarapan kat rumah, wajib akan singgah treats.

Sampai pakcik2 kat situ dah tau,

"mesti budak ni nak 2 spicy chicken rolls"

Well yeah, memang sedap pun.

Dan kenyang.

Sebab tu laa beli.

Tiba-tiba dia tanya,

P : How much did you buy the headphone.

A : 20 pounds.

P : 20 pounds for sony? (nada terkejut)

A : Yeah. I bought it at Imperial Union Shop.

P : Is it good?

A : For sure! Wanna give a try?

So, passing laa headphone ni kat pakcik ni untuk dia test dengar.

P : What song is this?

I was like, errrr, pakcik... 

A : It is a malay song. Our prime minister's wife love it a lot. Haha

Dia pun gelakk sambil bagi balik headphone tu.

P : Even though I cant understand any of the words, I like the song. It's so catchy. 

Dalam hati, 

"Pakcik ni nak ambik hati so that lagi slalu beli kat kedai dia ka apa ni?" 

lol.

Tamat perbualan.

Bergerak terus ke Imperial. :)

***

ps : dah jadi rutin, tak kira kelas start pkl 10 ka, pkl 11 ka, pkl 12 ka, mesti akan sampai imperial before 10am.

pps : tak berapa minat barang2 sony. tapi when it comes to music, it is number 1. hebat gak iklan and branding dia sampai boleh terpengaruh dengan senang..

Valentino

Valentino Rossi

Dia ni pelumba motosikal.

Grand Prix

***

Homesick

simply homesick. 

Dengan indat. Sabah 2011

Raya dengan family 2011 =)

Danish, Mak Long dan Jiji

Ni free posing. Jiji sampai tak boleh tahan gelakk.

Ni kat sabah tahun 2009. 

Dalam perjalanan ke Airport untuk nak balik ke Semenanjung. Indat dan Abah. =)

Cucu soleh. Nenek yang insylh tahun ni akan pergi haji.

Ni lapangan terbang antarabangsa kota kinabalu.



Dan above all, ni antara yang paling dirindui skali. Main chess dengan mereka2 ni. =')

Danish. Genius boy. Lawan chess dengan dia, kalah sampai 3 kali berturut2. =)

Abah. Orang yang menyemai minat terhadap chess, badminton, pingpong dan bola. =)

Jiji. Walaupun liat nak main kat rumah, tapi kalau sekali lawan dengan dia, mencanak gak kena fikir.

Pais. Kalau dalam rumah tu, dia claim dia yang paling hebat. Haha. Well, memang hebat pun. =)

Danish. Kat meja nombor 3. Dalam tournament ni, paling tinggi pun, aku sampai meja 4 jee. Danish potong semua abang2 dia.

Aku. Masa ni, game ni je yang tak habis2 lagi. Lawan dengan champion tournament ni. Orang lain semua dah habis. Masa pun tengah dahsyat. End up, kalah masa. =)

Pemenang. Siapa sangka, dapat jugak RM80 dan pingat. Danish dapat RM50 dengan pingat jee. =P hehe.

Rindunya semua benda nii. :')

Nak lagii cuti lama-lama~

:(

***

ps : no ps kali ni. (habeh tu yang hang pi tuleh ps buat apa? =.=")

Music

That moment,

when you realized that,

the amount of your workload,

is actually doubled from your prediction,

with only few days left before the submission.

It was just wayy toooo overwhelming.

Lepas habis kelas pukul 5,

macam biasa,

akan ke tube station ikut subway.

Approaching the middle of the subway,

half-way through before arriving the South Kensington tube station,

a mild, soft melody start reaching my ears.

It was sooo soothing.

It was this pakcik who played a very beautiful song.

And calm me down a bit.

My Heart Will Go On instrumental.

I approached that pakcik,

smiling at him,

and say thank you before sedekah-ing some of my coins to him.

And I stayed there until he finished playing the song.

Well pakcik,

now you are my number 1 underground / subway artist.

Dulu seorang guitarist ni yang suka main lagu-lagu rancak dan happy-happy.

The reason why you are now becoming number 1,

because I start to love romantic songs.

And you always play them,

even though sometimes I don't have any idea what is the title of the song.

I simply love them.

:)

Thank you pakcik.

***

ps : weekend yang tak kan jadi macam weekend. kalaulah masa tu boleh dibeli.

pps : sembang dengan sebastian. dia cakap, "damn crazy imperial. how do they expect us can finish all of these in 2 weeks." well, imperial always has its own ways to kill their students~

Imperial

Ya Allah.

Penat sangat.

Rasa macam dah letak banyak sangat effort nak study.

Tak skip kuliah.

Weekend buat kerja-kerja untuk projek.

Balik lewat malam untuk buat tutorial sheets.

But it seems like,

masa tak pernah nak cukup.

Baru nak boleh catch-up satu topik tu,

lecturer dah move pi topik lain.

End up,

loss.

Tak tau apa yang dia ajaq dalam lecture hall tu.

Istilah2 macam istilah2 alien dah.

Itu untuk satu subjek.

Belum lagi subjek lainn yang memerlukan perhatian yang sama.

total of 8 subjects. 

=.=

Projek satu ni tak habis lagi,

dah bagi projek baruu.

Dah tak reti dah nak bahagi masa macam mana.

Pernah orang cakap,

"kau ni memang duniawi habis ah"

A'ah.

Kalau aku tak duniawi,

memang tak ke mana aku kat imperial tu.

At least, I will have something yang aku dapat dengan ke'duniawi'an aku kat imperial.

Yeah,

end up kena pujuk diri gak.

Berjalan laa slow-slow.

Lawan kesibukan dan kesusahan sket.

Yang boleh pujuk a bit,

at least nanti bila habis,

I can proudly say to people,

I'm an Imperial College graduate.

Or

I'm an Imperial College survivor.

:)

***

ps : ape lah yang tengah jadi kat dunia facebook sekarang ni? wondering...
pps : dapat tawu kawan classmate masa skolah rendah dulu kawen hari ni. mabrook. happy for both of you. :)

ppps : ex-naqib, din, pun akan nikah dalam sehari dua ni. xdak dah laa boleh bergayut macam selaluu.

Bila Diri Disayangi

Pukul 11.15 malam.

Masa tu tengah atas tube.

Otw balik rumah dari Uni.

All of a sudden,

iphone

plays

rock-kapak song

yang best.

Bila dengar lagu ni balik,

mesti teringat kmb.

Masa tu tengah ceramah malam jumaat.

Karaoke lagu ni sama-sama dengan ustaz.

Ramai-ramai.
Dalam surau.

Masa tu barulah sedar,

rupanya lagu ni berunsurkan ketuhanan.

Kenangan.

:)

***

ps : oh omega n dan zeta values. awat hangpa tak sama untuk 2-2 experiment? T___T

pps : subhanallahh. lawaaaaa.

Random : Weekend

Dua Lab Reports.

Itu ok lagi.

Yang tak ok,

kenapa data analysis kena guna matlab?

T__T

tulis skrip saja dah setengah hari.

baru boleh extract segala data dalam csv file tu.

dan yang lagi tak ok,

semua orang tengah bergembira kat ireland,

tapi ada budak sorang ni terlekat kat bilik sorang-sorang buat benda alah ni.

dan yang lagi2 tak ok,

rumah ni kosong. xda orang. 

housemates semua keluar weekend ni.

home alone.

bujang alone.

***

ps : thanks for the lovely birthday giftss! :)

pps : kalau dok komplen ja kerja banyak tapi x buat, bila nak siap?! 

Random : Test

Keluar dah results progress test.

Mathematics - E

Heat Transfer - D

Thermodynamics - D

Materials - C

Mechatronics - C

Stress Analysis - B

Fluid Mechanics - A

Dynamics - A

Memang flying colours sungguh.

Semua gred ada.

Pastu mula laaa lagu Ella - Standing in the eyes of the world jadi lagu tema untuk tahun ni.

Tiba masa

kau melangkah gagah

bersemangat ke arah matlamat sedaya upaya

engkau terunggul

wajar standing in the eyes of the world

***

ps : panjang sungguh haih lagi perjalanan

pps : the difference between you and me is, i write for myself while you write for the readers.

Random : 230113

For what is a man, what has he got

If not himself, then he has naught

To say the things he truly feels

And not the words of one who kneels

The record show I took the blow

And did it my way.

***

hidangan di pagi hari sebelum ke sekolah

Dominant

Quality Time

Gifts

***

ps : penuh pulak lab term nii

Heartsong

Walaupun Dia memberatkan suatu bahagian,

Dia permudahkan balik suatu bahagian yang lain.

:')

New Wallpaper

Have changed the desktop wallpaper.

Hope this will make me to study more.

And harder.

And become smarter.

Insyaallah.

***

ps : still on the right track to get 1st class for this term. :)

Good to see it again

Yesterday.

In the Fluid Mechanics class.

"Hey, When I was in the toilet, I heard people said the Computing result is out already. Check yours!"

"Err. Seriously?"

Take the iPhone.

Opened Moodle site.

Navigated to ME2 Computing.

Clicked on Results for the Full Course.

Scrolling down.

Searching for my CID.

Cuak. Seriously.

Found it.

Just beside of it,

stated a grade.

"A"

Alhamdulillah.

I has been a long time since I met you.

Nak menangis pun ada dapat tengok balik gred ni.

For some reasons,

it boosts back the momentum,

to strive harder.

Thanks for visiting me again.

Such a pleasure can meet you again.

:')

*****

p/s : you shoot me down, but i won't fall. i'm titanium.

Negative Marking

I hate it when this happened.

Soalan 10 markah,

kalau salah, tolak 10 markah.

Tak dak belas kasihan langsung!

At most, tolak 2 ke 3 markah dah laa.

Habis tolak markah-markah soalan yang lain yang dapat betul.

=.=

***

ps : hari ni maths. esok mechatronics. lusa materials. gambate!
pps : jangan gelak aku letak efficiency more than 1. sebab volumetric efficiency can really be more than one.

Facebook

Esok, 7 Januari 2013.

Dah genap sebulan tak ada facebook.

Bermaksud,

dah genap sebulan jugak dak berada dalam social networking website.

(except blogger. tapi blogger ni social networking website gak ke?)

Kononnya,

boleh laa tumpu study bagai.

Tapi, hmmpphh

naik 1 percent ja kerajinan study.

But then, 

the good thing is that,

instead of melangut lama-lama depan facebook,

scroll down, and continue to scroll down,

even it was for how many times dah looking at the same updates and comments,

kali ni,

tak ada laaa banyak masa habis sebab tu ja.

bila ada masa lapang, 

lebih terasa nak baca novels,

baca non-academic books,

pergi keluar main,

pergi rumah orang lain kacau orang, (ni good thing ke?)

dengar video-video tafsir kat facebook,

dan rancang masa depan.

Yeah,

not bad sebenarnya hidup tanpa facebook.

Tapi yang slacknya,

tak berapa terupdate dengan isu semasa,

tak tawu sape yang nak kahwin next,

etc.

But still,

personally,

i feel,

it is better to live this way.

By not having facebook doesn't mean I am totally isolated,

from the outside world,

from my friends.

Actually, it makes me realize,

and makes me to treasure more,

with what I already had,

and with the surrounding.

:)

***

ps : nampak gaya kena letak word verification kat ruang komen. penuh spam orang jual benda ntah apa2. 

pps : terasa macam nak tukar nama blog. patutkah?

Ummi Said

Often what makes us fall into despair is focusing on the wrong things.

For example, if we’ve sinned, we focus on the sin, rather than the Most Merciful.

If we’re broken, we focus on the break instead of Al Jabbar, the One who mends.

If we are in pain, we focus on the pain itself, instead of on the One who removes all pain.

If we are wounded, we focus on the wound instead of on the One who heals all wounds.

If we’re scared, we focus on the fear, instead of the Protector.

And if we’re facing a problem, we see the problem, but not the One who can solve it.

We see the lion, but not the lion tamer.

We see the imperfections of dunya, but not the perfection of Allah.

We see the immediate, but not the Tomorrow,

the tree, but not the fruit,

the thorn, but not the rose.

All our pain,

all our despair,

all our hopelessness,

stems from looking at the creation,

instead of the Creator.

-Yasmin Mogahed

***

:)

020113

Dah hari rabu.

Pukul 1.37 pagi.

Ada lagi 2 test kena siapkan dalam waktu cuti ni.

Thermodynamics,

Heat Transfer.

Which tak baca satu apa lagi pun.

Naik cuti, ada 4 test menunggu,

4 hari back to back.

Dynamics (Vibration),

Mathematics,

Mechatronics,

Materials.

Pun tak baca satu apa pun.

Tapi, tak terasa nak study lagi.

Haha, mati.

Bukannya tak nak study,
tapi dok baca ulang2 kali pun still tak faham,
terus malas.

Most likely akan jadi macam 1st year balik,

2A 5 fail.

zzz

Terfikir.

If only manusia ni diciptakan tak mempunyai perasaan,

feelingless,

mesti senangkan nak bagi tumpuan kat apa-apa ja kerja.

Dan juga study.

***

ps : how i wish dengan makan coklat je dapat menaikkan mood study.

pps : lately ni melekat dekat 'hotfm am crew top 5'. lawak plak dengar lawak2 lame.
ppps : decide untuk letak jugak gender sebab ramai orang ingat akmalhayat ni pempuan. =.=

010113

Well,

Happy New Year folks.

May Allah grants what you wish for.

***

2012

Ini post personal. 

Tiada ilmu, dan tiada apa-apa pengajaran yang boleh diambil daripadanya. 

Simply said,

a useless post.

*******

2012 dan 2011. 

Kedua-duanya tahun kegagalan.

In every single aspect (akademik, kehidupan, etc).

Yang aku rasa, aku tak 'hidup' pun pada kedua-dua tahun ini.

Dan aku dah lupa pun apa yang aku target untuk kedua-dua tahun ini.

Kalau nak dikenangkan balik,

tak tahu nak cakap.

Of course ada sedikit daripadanya yang best. Seronok.

Tapi selain daripada itu, aku tidak 'hidup'.

Dan dah lali dengan pandangan orang,

sebagai budak gagal.

Immune.

Perkataan expectation.

Is something that can cause destruction.

Ultimate destruction.

Pernah rasa orang letak expectation yang tinggi kat diri?

Ia nya membuatkan diri manusia itu tidak pernah 'hidup'.

Bangun pagi, hingga ke tidur, berjaga untuk memenuhi expectation.

Not your own life.

Hingga dalam masa yang berlalu tu,

tak sedar pun apa yang berada kat sekeliling.

Tak pernah pun nak treasure apa yang ada di sekitar.

Expectation itu membutakan.

And I simply hate that word.

"Apa expectation hang sekian3.."

"Apa expectation enta dalam sekian3.."

"Ana expect enta by this sekian2, anta dah sekian2.."

Dari tahun 2010, 

I learnt not to put any expectation on people,

sebab mesti, expectation tu akhirnya mengecewakan.

Tiap kali.

Dan sekarang baru nak merangkak untuk tak hiraukan expectation orang ke atas diri.

Ia membejatkan.

Aku suka cerita 100 ekor katak.

Semuanya dalam perlumbaan untuk memanjat bangunan sky-scrapper.

Dan dalam perlumbaan tu, semua makhluk yang ada di sekeliling 100 ekor katak ni cakap,

"U cant make it!"

"Mimpi je laa nak sampai ke puncak. Hang tu katak ja weh! Bukan burung."

Kebanyakan mereka terkandas awal-awal lagi.

Dan ada satu katak, dah nak sampai ke puncak, tetiba ternampak,

dah ada satu ekor katak yang terlompat-lompat di atas bangunan.

Every single katak wonders, macam mana dia boleh sampai atas dgn sangat cepat.

Rupanya dia pekak. Dan tak dengar pun apa orang-orang lain kata.

I wish I can be like it.

Tetapi, membesar dengan asyik kena mendengar apa orang lain cakap,

dan selalu berfikir terlalu banyak mengenainya,

ianya seperti mission impossible.

Mustahil.

Well, 

bila orang tanya, 

apa azam tahun 2013?

I would say,

"I dont have any."

Nak jadi lebih baik? Nak berjaya dalam akademik? Nak 1st class?

I'll put everything aside first.

What matter the most,

is to cheer myself up dulu.

I'll try my very best to live my own life,

yang aku dah kehilangan sejak banyak sangat tahun,

semata-mata nak kejar expectation orang.

Penat.

Let it be orang nak cakap, selfish.

In the end, I am the one who live my life.

Not others.

***

2013,

here we go!

menunggu hidangan yang 2013 sajikan.

:)

***

ps : akan tukar url blog. dan akan buat search engine tak includekan blog ni dalam senarainya.

pps : sayonara facebook. dah dekat sebulan hidup tanpanya. means, i can really live without it.

p3s : tak boleh nak contact? i still have my phone with me. just drop a text and mention your name.

p4s : i had said previously. post ni tak mendatangkan manfaat.

p5s : cuba sebaik mungkin untuk nak rasa best belajar kat imperial. ianya sangat susah nak belajar dalam tempat yang anda tak suka

p6s : will take a very3 long break.