Book To Read

1) Islam and Secularism
2) The Secular City

Program Motivasi JPA

It was Saturday

15th February 2014.

It was 3 hours talks started from 10am until 1pm.

The purposes of the talks were to remind us that 

1) we are JPA scholars. and everyone looks high on us. so need to meet their expectation.

2) if we fail along the way of studying and the university rejects us, we need to pay what JPA has spent on us.

3) to motivate us to get 1st class hons.

There was also a sharing from Pn Shahnaz, currently pursuing her PhD in 4th year with 3 children (the eldest is already 16). She shared how he studied effectively by narrowing down her study time table.

For example, if she needs to study for two hours after having dinner, she will not just state in her schedule "study". Rather she will write, "Finish chapter 3 and 4". So that she can measure her achievement; either she met her goal or not.

I still remember, she said that the goals have to be SMART

S = Specific

M = Measurable

A = Attainable

R = Realistic

T = Time-frame (has time frame)

I used to do this, but it had been a long time.

******

After zuhr prayer, we should have our lunch.

But I stayed in the prayer room,

laying back,

keep thinking and asking myself,

why i feel so demotivated?

why am i in imperial studying engineering?

maybe i am incompetent to be in imperial?

until lunch hour passed.

once i get back to the seminar room,

en zaki asked me,

"akmal, tak makan? mai2 makan. makan ayam penyet ni"

i simply replied

"takpa2. tak rasa lapar"

and i really not in mood to do anything.

with toothache and fever still with me.

******

then, we were divided into 4 groups to do some activities.

i was in group 4. 

we played telefon buruk, pencils and mencari harta karun games.

in telefon buruk game,

we need to pass the message given to the first person,

until the final person,

within our group.

then the final person will say what had been passed to him in front.

in pencils game,

we were given 12 pencils,

and we were needed to form 7 squares,

using all the pencils.

and we were last.

in mencari harta karun game,

the game involved all the JPA scholars to form 1 large group.

in the game, there will be one person who will hide/keep the harta karun.

then there'll be 2 pencuri that will curi the harta karun.

then mr azzam told us,

"okay, kita perlukan 2 orang pencuri"

i immediately raised my hand

volunteered to be one of the pencuris.

then we were asked to leave the room for a while

whilst they discussed who to hold the harta karun

mr azzam gave a hint,

the pencuri was who will initiate a movement

before the movement was followed by everyone.

after they had decided who'll keep the harta karun,

and discussed some tricks so that we couldnt notice who was initiating every movement,

we we asked to get back into the seminar room

trying to spot the pencuri.

and i got the pencuri spot on

after spending about 5-7 minutes observing

******

the final session we were asked to get back to our group

in the session, the person who held a keychain gave by the facilitator would need to keep his/her mouth shut.

then, the other people would describe him/her based on their first impression.

and what i got from them were

1) like to initiate thing - based on the harta karun game

2) sharp - able to spot the pencuri accurately

3) fast to pick up 

4) critical - because they looked me always thinking

well,

all of those,

are just an act,

to cheer up my day,

from the gloomy feeling.

i never like to initiate thing

perhaps i once a sharp person. now, no more.

i am slow to pick up

and i never critical

all those qualities,

even i once had them,

had long gone.

******

and after the programme,

i met en zaki,

and asked about my status in JPA record.

then i knew

that i will not be having my summer allowance

that i already planned on how to spend them

the allowance

gone for good

:)

a long and hard road awaiting ahead.

i might pretend not to have problem with them.

but one day,

i will face them,
soon enough,

even if i dont want to.

good luck.

:)

life.

it simply goes on.

Banana Oatmeal Shake

Resepi penting masa2 sakit gigi and tak berapa nak boleh makan benda keras2.


Ingredients

11/2 cups milk (skim) (fat free, 2% or whole milk. whatever works for you)
1/2 cup ice
1 banana (Large, Frozen works best as a review has suggested)
1/2 cup oats (old fashioned)
11/2 tbsps honey


Yums.

Sedap gak.

And kenyang.

Pastu sumbat painkiller masuk sistem badan~

combo

dalam banyak2 minggu,
minggu ni jugak yang pakcik demam n makcik sakit gigi nak datang ziarah.
combo.

2 deadlines kot minggu ni.
hilang mood buat semua kerja.
tinggal mood baring
dengan mood gigit tuala ja.

I won't give up

I wont give up on us
Even if the skies get rough~

:')

In the world of race

Life long I live
The life of another
For just one moment
Let me live as me

Give me some sunshine
Give me some rain
Give me another chance
I wanna grow once again

Cooking

Since I have TV in my room in UK,
cooking channels have always been my favourite channels.

Masterchef UK
Masterchef Australia
Gordon Ramsey's Home Cooking
Mary Berry at Home
Mary Berry's Ultimate Cakes
Bitchin' Kitchen


Banyakk sangat tahu pasal makanan.

Sebab apa dulu-dulu bila masak ayam rasa tak sedap.
Macam mana nak masak perfectly cooked meat.
Macam mana nak jadi kreatif bila masak.
Macam mana nak dress kan pinggan.


And I even buy Home Cooking Recipes Book.
Tak sabar sangat nak try.
Inspired pulak untuk masak makanan best2 bila tengok great chefs ni memasak.


Bila ada rumah sendiri nanti,
nak ada kawasan dapur yang besar!

***

p/s : When you fed up with what you are learning at university and start doing somethings else that you enjoy so much but not related to your course at all.

Wonder

This really brings back memory.
Sitting down in front of tv,
and watching this together with danish.





Pets.

The not so perfectly cooked chicken breast

Tuesday

28th January 2014

Sempena my birthday eve, cuba untuk buat masakan best untuk treat diri sendiri. 

Then,

Chef london seorang ni cuba laaa untuk memasak..

Juicy and tender chicken breast. 

Or in shirt,

Perfectly cooked chicken breast

Tadaaa!!!

And the result was,

Top of the chicken fillet dah garing elok dah. 

Warna dah lawaaaa. 

Tapi,

Perkara yang paling penting,

Which was a juicy and tender meat,

Tidak kesampaian~~

T___T

It was overcooked. 

So, the self birthday treat was...

The not so perfect and not so juicy chicken breast. 

Huhuuu. 

But, next time will surely,

Surely a perfectly cooked chicken breast. 

Insylhhh. 

Bad Day

Selasa

28 Januari 2014

Hari selasa dari pukul 10pg - 1 tghari,

Macam biasa, ada ECM Lab. 

Hari ni first time kena tulis code sendiri,

Guna C language. 

Untuk in class assessment, kena siapkan 4 exercises. 

Nampak siket. 

Memang siket punn. 

Tapi,

Tak faham apa langsung. 

Dan tak reti nak buat apa. 

So jadi sangat lahh slowwww. 

Dan banyak laa kena tanya GTA. 

Pastu bila GTA tanya,

"Ni untuk apa? Yang ni pulak untuk apa?"

Terus clueless. 

Tak tawu nak cakap apa. 

Out of 4 exercises,

Sempat siapkan 1 je.

Tu pun orang tolong. 

In 3 hours, mampu score 25% ja untuk lab kali ni. 

T____T

Rasa noob. 

Happiness and Stress

26th January 2014





Sometimes, we just worry about dunya too much.
:'

Do Not Lose Yourself

26th January 2014



"I'm losing myself,
Because I have too much."


:'/


'Abid.
Khalifah.



The feeling is fading.
A little by a little.
From time to time.

:'/

Humble

Friday
24th January 2014




Humble heart.
Humble action.

Dakwah

Terjumpa penulisan Ust Alizi Alias, seorang da'ie dan jugak seorang yang pakar dalam psikologi.

I paste it here so that, when I feel really small, inferior or even really hurt with people in this jalan dakwah, I will not make a decision to leave this great road. This will be my very reminder that there are many ways to contribute in this road.

Mardhatillah.

*******

Kdg2 golongan bukan pendakwah suka mengharap supaya golongan pendakwah ini perfect. Kadang2 siap pressure lagi utk pendakwah kena jadi perfect. Tapi definisi perfect mereka lain.

Kena pandai menghibur dlm ceramah lah, kena pandai menulis dgn kreatif lah, kena pandai bahasa Arab, kena pandai mengaji, kena lembah-lembut, kena pandai bergaul dgn masyarakat, kena pakai pakaian tertentu, tak boleh tegur orang direct2, tak boleh tegur bab sensitif. Sehingga ramai org awam memilih utk tidak join dakwah sbb banyak sgt syarat yg sebenarnya tidak syarat pun.

Di kalangan pendakwah pula, mereka menyedari yg mereka tidak perfect dlm semua perkara. Tapi definisi mereka berbeza.

Ada yg pandai ceramah/menulis, ada yg pandai dakwah non-Muslim, ada yg pandai kerja2 kebajikan, ada yg pandai isu2 masyarakat madani, ada yg pandai isu2 wanita/kekeluargaan, ada yg pandai bawak halaqah/usrah, ada yg pandai promosi program dakwah, ada yg pandai media, ada yg pandai isu2 ummah antarabangsa, ada yg mahir bergaul dgn belia/remaja, ada yg pandai dlm mendidik anak2 murid, pandai dlm akademik dan pembangunan siswa, malah ada yg pandai memasak utk program2 dakwah.

Tapi semua itu dirancang, dilaksanakan, dan dinilai bersama2 dgn cara syura dlm halaqah/usrah, atau mesyuarat2 i.e amal secara berjama'ah. Diharapkan pahala yg diperolehi oleh setiap pendakwah yg berbeza kelebihan ini ini dapat dikongsi bersama semua pendakwah yg tidak sempurna ini.

Itulah hasil amal jama'i atau collective work, saling sempurna menyempurna antara satu sama lain.
Tiada yg merasa rendah diri utk menjadi pendakwah.

*******

Winter Break

And now,
winter break is here!

after a week of sleepless nights~

really need to plan this break wisely.

1) complete all the tutorial sheets (a must do if i don't wanna regret during my final exam)

2) learning coding. C language. Need to use it for next term robotic project.

3) apply for intership! still need to repair the cv.

4) somehow, every monday to thursday, i watched master chef the professional tv programme. really inspired with their cooking. so, the next in the list is, i wanna learn how to become a good chef! (as long as time allows)

5) start completing my log book and writing the group project final report. before everything messes around next term.

well, it's a 4 weeks break anyway. hopefully i can meet all my winter break aims! insyaAllah. (someone keeps reminding me to always say insyaAllah. ^__^)

:)

Random : Bila diri disayangi

London
11/11/13

Rules for a Happy Marriage

Being tagged by Amin Ruk in instagram.

I write it here so that I can refer to this rules easily some where in my life later on and practise it insyaallah.

:)

***

1. Never both be angry at the same time.
2. Never yell at each other unless the house is on fire.
3. If one of you has to win an argument, let it be your mate.
4. If you have to criticize, do it lovingly.
5. Never bring up mistakes of the past.
6. Neglect the whole world rather than each other.
7. Never go to sleep with an argument unsettled.
8. At least once everyday try to say one kind or complimentary thing to your life's partner.
9. When you have done something wrong, be ready to admit it and ask for forgiveness.
10. It takes two to make a quarrel, and the one in the wrong is the one who does the most talking.

***

Random - Impian Kasih

Ahad
27 September 2013
10.30 malam

Sambil buat Literature Research Project,
dengar lagu ni berulang-ulang kali.

So soothing.
:')




p/s : hurricane is coming

UK 3 - Euston Train Station

Sabtu
26 Oktober 2013

Dr Ipin datang ke London.
Lepas dia tamat dengan kerja dia, dia nak jumpaa satt sebelum ke Manchester.
Makan angin rasanya kat sana.

Dari London, kalau nak ke Manchester Picadilly,
the only train station is Euston Railway Station.

Sampai sana awal 15 minit.
Dengar announcement

"This is a London Midland service to Birmingham New St"

Then, segala memori pergi ke Birm,
dan semua yang berkaitan dengan Birm datang.

Rindunyaaaa.

***

Jumpa ja Dr Ipin,
dia cakap,
"Lef Kolonel sampaikan ucapan. Dia cakap..."
"Kirim salam kat bakal menantu."

*Blushing sangat.*

"Waalaikumussalam"

:')

Lafaz Yang Tersimpan

Jumaat
25 Oktober 2013

Hari ni banyak orang share berita kat FB
pasal seorang suami yang dapat panggilan telefon sejam sebelum isterinya meninggal.
Isteri mahukan love assurance daripada suami.
Tapi oleh kerana si suami sedang memandu,
dia bercakap dia tak boleh bercakap kerana memandu.

Lafaz Yang Tersimpan



Teringat laguu ni terus bila baca berita tu


Mengapakah sukar menyusun bicara
Meluahkan rasa menuturkan sayang
Kasih yang terlimpah hanya sekadar tingkah
Cumalah ungkapan bisu kalimah rahsia

Apakah yang hilang andai dilisankan
Bait penghargaan penuh kejujuran
Tak mungkin terlihat cinta yang merona
Jika hanya renungan mata yang bersuara,
Bukan tutur kata

Tiada lagi ertinya pengucapan
Andai akhir nafas di hujung helaan
Sebelum mata rapat terpejam
Usah biar kehilangan
Menggantikan lafaz yang tersimpan


***
Pengajaran pada diri.
Always let people know that you love him/her.

;'/